Self-criticism of me
My dearly beloved wife (little Ben Ben):
First of all, I am going to say “I’m sorry” for the last time.
I have promised myself to do many things for you, I would like to do all that I can for you, love you decently.
You did a lot for me, but I am always not quite satisfied, your love to me like an addictive poison, can not but carry on, always want more.
Since that incident, we began the quarrel, and every time I raise up the question. Always suspecting you, in order to solve the problem that even me, myself do not know how that small doubt came up. Over and over again with the same problem and you explained that with the same answer, and then is frustrated and sad that left to you.
I do not like to just say byebye in a sad mood , keep the questions awake, or let you think you can fix it yourself, I have said that, as it always will be the big problems after things that remained unsolved, I want a lifetime with you, and do not want that to happen.
It seems that, every time I done something wrong and in the few minutes I am fully aware of my own fault. My naive or not think for you, what drugs to buy to regret?
It was you that let me regain the feelings of the existence of the world of love, in the past that I thought that it is only a group of people created the world of their own, but since I am with you, everything is different; the world seems changed in my eyes, like all because of you.
These four months together with you, I am very happy, no matter when quarrel or pleased, I am all very happy. Because I’m still with you. I hope that this period will let our journey become more smooth and favoring.
I want to tell you that, I will never shout to you ever again. Think of a little more for you. It’s my bad that day. Facts have proved that my wife is always right, I will always remember that.
I want to tell you that, things have been, we have said passed on, just let them go. And now it’s only you and me, I will not use that kind of things to joke you around or to tease you with that, my heart is the shape of you, forgive my childish.
I want to tell you that, you are the best of my best, you understand me, always concern for my feelings, you gave up a lot for me. You only wanted to be with me. My heart has been truly touched and I never forget.
I really like a king of jealousness like you said, in the field of jealousy, I am always a winner. I am afraid that other people also like you like I do.
I want to tell you that, every time parted with you, I am looking forward the time could pass as soon as possible, and thought about dinner while eating lunch, thought about getting hot water while having dinner... ...
I want to tell you that, I am not going to lie to you any more, from small things to big. You have my word. I hope you can give me another chance, believe in me.
I want to tell you that, I will certainly pay attention to my problems of the word before and now don’t match, as long as every line is all truth , something like that will never happen again.
I want to tell you that, you have always been comes the first in my heart, Li or Yi cannot compare with what I have feelings for you, this strong feeling is only with you, I will not get you and them to compare, they did not eligible.
I want to tell you that, I have “big man attitude” and I know that. I am also a very strong self-esteem person. I am trying to change, you will see.
I want to tell you that, you are you, like no others. I like you, I will not try to change you any more, because you have changed yourself for me, I can see that.
I want to tell you that, I want more respect for you, respect your feelings and respect for your behavior, respect for the independence of your personality.
You are my wife, you are mine, at the same time I am also yours. I like this feeling of belonging together which I never had, I think you may feel the same way too.
I wanted to write a lot more tonight, but I think we all know lots of things better remained unsaid.
I thought a lot, about us. I think we can make it, no matter what happens, I will be right here beside you. I have faith in us.
I hope that this will become a new starting point of our relationship. I will strive for our future!
I love you!
Your dearly beloved husband